CHANGE.

It always amazes me how much can change in such a short amount of time. Day by day goes by and things just sort of gradually move along, but all of a sudden you look back and realize everything is different. It sort of freaks me out. It can be a bad thing, but it can also be a great thing. I think that's what makes life so crazy cool. There is always the potential for change. I look back at my life just a month ago, a mere 30 days, and realize that it is not what I had planned on. Some of it is sad, and some of it is so wonderful I can't put it into words. I'm not really sure what this post is supposed to say to you. I guess what I've been learning is not to settle. So often, I feel like we settle for bad relationships, toxic friendships, stupid drama, and unfulfilling things. What in the hell is the point of all of that? I think the older I get, the more important it is to me that I surround myself with positive people and things. There's no room or time for people that bring you down or make you feel bad. In the past 30 days I have lost a friend, but I have also reconnected with an old one. In the past 30 days, I have met someone. I have met someone who has started to heal me. He makes everything else seem irrelevant. In the past 30 days, I have made huge decisions about what is important to me, who I let in, and who I want to be. All it took was 30 days.

Change. It's something that scares us all to death, if we're really honest with ourselves. Even if we aren't in love with how things are right now, the idea of things changing is terrifying. Maybe because we think things might get worse, maybe because we think we might lose something, maybe because we think we won't ever get things back to the way they are. But what if things get better? What if we realize that losing that thing you were so afraid to lose is probably the best thing to ever happen? What if, just what if, things change in such a way that we don't want them to go back to how they used to be? What if things change into exactly what you need them to be?

Things can change in the blink of an eye. One decision, one moment, and everything changed. Things I thought I could plan on are different. Someone I thought I could count on failed to live up to my expectations. But most of the important things in my life are still the same. I have my family, I have my best friend Rose, I have my health, I have school, I have my thoughts and dreams and beliefs. And now, I have something else that I wasn't planning on or looking for. Funny how that happens, you meet someone and you expect nothing of it. And then all of a sudden, they change things for you. And in a single night, with a simple walk home, everything changed. In the best way I could have imagined.